I have had some of the worst days of my life recently. My husband has been having some mental struggles since Christmas of last year. Here is a quick review of what’s been happening.
We thought Chuck had a stroke around Christmas. Turns out it was seizures. The doctor said it was pseudodementia because he found no evidence of seizure activity. Was Chuck pretending? If so, this was the meanest thing ever.
Chuck does not want me to work. Retirement is not a possibility if we would like to continue things such as eating. Chuck has expressed his desire for me to not work.
We normally host exchange students. I was hesitant but Chuck said we should continue hosting. That was not a good idea. The first week of the school year one of the students played hookie. Chuck swore there was a stranger in the house. The students had to relocate. This saddened Chuck. He expressed wanting to kill himself.
I took him to the local emergency room. They did not have room due to covid and they released him.
A few days later Chuck spent the day calling me at work and also calling our daughter. He made close to 100 calls telling us he had to go to the hospital. We went.
All of the above was written what will be two years ago this October. Chuck never made it home to me. The diabetes caused his brain to swell which caused epileptic seizures. He spent over two months in the hospital. He contracted Covid in the hospital. He passed from kidney failure and phenomia from the Covid. It was a heartbreaking year.
I hesitated sharing this post. I needed to share it to help heal. There is much more to the story but the memories are still too fresh to share. I am a very possitive person and a lover of life. I do not focus on the sad but on the opportunities life has in store for me. I do miss him though.
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Hello, my name is Dinky. This is a name given to me in my first marriage. It is my grandma name. A few other selected individuals address me as such. I am a onetime divorced, one-time widowed single woman trying to discover the real me. I will take you on my journey. Read if you are interested.
I feel that I am a hard knock educated person. I have been a working mother, a stay-at-home wife, a Christian, a caretaker, and a retired woman. I am always seeking wisdom on how to improve as a person and hopefully I can share as I learn more.
I have many interests. I enjoy cooking because I enjoy eating. I am not a great cook but am eager to try new recipes. I will share these with you. I have a degree in business management and a certification in food science. I have worked man years in the food manufacturing industry.
I also have a small farm. I have some cows, a donkey, some wild horses a bull and two dogs. I would like to explore more homesteading techniques and become self-sustained. Maybe we can learn together. I encourage your input and ideas.
I have spent many years learning how to make quilts. This is another hobby I would like to get back into. I am always up to learn new crafts and explore new projects.
I am really big on goal setting and finding ways to make my life simpler. I will take you through some of my ideas on that progress.
Lastly, but biggest on my list is that I am a Christian in continual growth mode. I will never be all that I should, and I will never judge people in regard to their own journey. I am always open for discussion on this topic.
If you find my talks interesting, feel free to follow me. If I say or write anything offensive feel free to call me out. I am up for improvement and self-growth.
Welcome to learning about me and helping me in my self-discovery.
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